Another day of a promising future

Today as I woke up, I didn't really feel that good as I have a slight fever but I still I cant stay sleeping for long because I have to be at the Computer Shop of my Ninang. I stopped being at school for this 2nd semester because my mother is sick and for short its just for a financial problem. So my Mother asked Ninang if she could send me to college maybe next year, and thank God she said yes. So to repay my Ninang in advance I have to work at her Computer shop to watch over it. Everyday I go through it, even if I'm not feeling well still I have to go to the shop. I don't mind the fever and a runny nose as long as I'm doing the right thing for my future I will not care for what others would think of me. I want to finish my college because I want to help my family and I want to live a better life. The past that I went through was painful so I'm setting that beside me. It will be my inspiration to move through with my life. Even if I have to eat nothing just to go to college. Even if I have to take all the insults and pain that people would do to me. I wouldn't mind all that. I am here for my future and I will do anything to achieve a great life and show to them who turned me down that I can do it and their painful words cant stop me from achieving my dreams.

A secret to tell...

I have a secret to tell you that really changed my life. I'm an adopted child when I was 7 years of age and then moved to Canada with my adopted parents when I was 10. My adopted mother is my Aunt. So in a way I'm related to her. Both my adopted father and mother actually already lived there for oh I don't lets just say almost decades. They don't have children of their own. So I was there with them at the age of 10 still trying to adopt with the environment as I was used to Philippine culture. Oh yeah I adopted quiet well. They sent me to a very good school, a Montessori school in Langley and they also enrolled me to study ballet and other stuff. I had a life of a princess there. Then suddenly everything turned upside down. I was already 15 that time, my mom picked me from school and then went straight to ballet class. When I came home around 5 or 6 I couldn't remember exactly but I remember the exact moment. My mom talked to me in our dining table she was in front of me. I was so blind to what she would tell me. When she burst out the words that "pack your things and you are going home to the Philippines. You exactly have 2 hours to get ready and we will go immediately to the airport" I was so shocked and so frozen and couldn't think of what to do and what to say. It's like my whole world has crashed down on me and my future became suddenly shaky. As I packed my things, nothing is coming out of head, I couldn't think straight at that moment. I don't know if I would be happy or sad or mad! As I finished packing almost all my things we immediately went to the airport with my mom and dad. I was still confused of whats happening. No one would seem to tell me. Then we landed Manila, Philippines June 22, 2005. It was almost my birthday. We went to many places that time. Then we went to Cebu. There my grandmother was waiting for me. I'm going home with her not with my adopted mother. So at that moment everything just went shit!!!! So young and naive I didn't know what it was for. Then my adopted mother told me "You will never ever heard from me ever again. Don't ever expect me to call you or to give you any money" Is that right that I heard from her. My adopted mother told me that. She just left me like a garbage can and she returned me like an unfit dress that she bought in the store. Until now I don't know why she did it to me. She ruined my life in a young age! I could not forget that moment! That moment of hell! She took everything from me! She took my passport, my citizenship card, my everything! She has it all. Until now, I'm already 18 years old, still no sign of her. She did not even support me financially and emotionally. I think this is not right! She is suppose to be my fucking mother! and what now!? she doesn't care about me?! Every night I cry for this thing! Now I don't know what's wrong with me!? Ahm I a bad daughter?! What did I do?!!! I was just a kid for crying out loud!!! She doesn't have a heart! Now, I'm afraid of everything. I became so insecure with myself because I always think that I'm bad. What she treats me before when I was there in Canada, she treats me like hell!! She didn't made me feel like I belong to her family! What I am now, is just all wrong?! I'm still searching for the answer why she did this to me? A secret that she would never tell me....

~Keeping A Cool Relationship: Straight From The Heart~

Psst.... Hey guys I have something for you here.Tired of those painful breakups? Not happy with ou relationship right now? Do you want a change? Well here's a secret to keep relationship alive.
Every relationship is unique and special. All relationships undergoes misuderstanding, jealousy, dishonesty, losing trust and all of that kind a stuff that would lead to what we call as breakup. Well don't be too alarmed if you're just a first time lover because this is pretty normal. You must have heard of "LQ" the lovers quarel thing? That's basically it. But we ask ourselves, what's the reason why every relationship goes through it? Can we prevent it in anyway we can possibly think of?
Well let's review from the top....

1. LOVE YOURSELF - Before you love somebody else you must first try to love yourself. Understand who you are and accpet who you are. Get to know yourself first. You will be surprise how you don't know yourself quiet well. We usually don't think of this we just immediately bump into a relationship that's why relationship has conflicts.
2. GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER - You know what,this is so the best thing that a two lover can do. Spend time to get to know each other. Hang out some place that both of you would have fun. Just simply act like your just friends. In the end it will be worth it.
3. TRUST - A must have in every relationship. Once a trust broken it is sure hard to gain again sometimes even impossible. Trust they say is earned not given.
4. HONESTY - It is a simple tool in every relationship. Honesty can sometimes be hard to follow. For our excuse no one is perfect. But that is just a stupid excuse. If you really want that your relationship will last long start taking action, start from being honest to your partner.
5. THE DO'S AND DONT'S OF YOUR PARTNER - Who doesn't agree when you tell your partner that they hate that thing and they like that thing and your partner just went deaf at you like she/he can't hear you. You know yourself your partners do's and dont's. So why would you still do it? That's what usually causes "LQ" Because us ourselves are so ignorant.
6. UNDERSTANDING - Seem ordinary eh? But we tend to forget. That's the truth. Try to understand your partner in the first place because once you understand him/her that means you accept for who he/she is.
7. ACCEPTANCE - There is no single relationship that is perfect. Don't think that your partner can give you everything you want. Jezz! Your partner is not your fairy Godmother or fairy Godfather. Try to accept his status in life, accept who he/she is and please don't expect to much. It's the love that is more important.
8. LOVE - Seems korny? Well it's just part of a relationship. In the first place there will be no relationship if you don't love each other. Try to evaluate if he/she i really the love of your life.

"Tear" me out

Reminisce the past... Remember the time the you cried because something very disappointing happened in your life? Because someone has stabbed you in the back, they pointed fingers at you that you did something bad, they humiliated you in front of people that you thought they were your friends after all you've done to them but in the end you become the laughing stock of the group?
I bet every person in the world right now have felt that pain. A pain in the heart that never seem to go away. That antagonizing pain that people have brought to you, when you cried in front of them begging for mercy. And the most painful pain is the pain that traitors bring to you. You seem helpless that you wish you were never born. So what you do is you just cry and cry. Tears of anger, sadness and revenge is all in there. You feel nothing but pain a shit pile of pain!
Now you have moved on with your life. The past is past they say. Now it's time to see what that bucket of tears have brought them to those people that they think all the world agrees with them and they think that they are the best thing that ever happened to the world... Heck they are so wrong!
That's why I so believe in karma, what goes around comes around. What you did before to someone is just gonna come back to you like a boomerang. But don't worry karma is not automatic. It wll just eat you slowly but surely. Not it's time for you to pay your price a very "sweet" price. The tears that the person that you have hurt before is much hollier. The price that you will get is much worst than what you have done. Oh yes! It's proven and tested. It is a price that you can never escape from. It's time for you to pay for those blood and tears that wa shed right in front of you. Now everything that you have will be taken away from you. You have leaved a good life, now it's time to suffer and crawl like a turtle.
Next time you make a person cry and a single tear fell in their eye, think twice because that will haunt you back not now but in the end it will.

Same old, Same old...

Do you notice when you wake up in the morning, you comb your hair, you brush your teeth, then you sit down and think of what you can do today? Well it's just this typical morning "sickness". Who agreess?
Everyday seems so repeatedly the same. Although sometimes you wake up differently but hopefully not that thing that we are scared of "Mr. Death". I'm not that gruesome. I'm just stating the truth. Oh well, the day has started you eat breakfast, then you go to work or school, you come home so pissed at your boss or your teacher or classmate, then you have dinner and you watch a little tv then you go to sleep. While you're sleeping you start to dream then morning comes here we go again. (sigh)...
Do you ever wish that everyday would be different. Like one day you wake up and there are bunch of bunnies hopping in your room or the aliens have landed on earth or the Godzillas have come to life. Hehehehe... Well, it seems impossible. But what the heck, you should know the saying that "everyday is a brand new day" So make the best out of today. Start things that will inspire you and that will live your life to the fullest. After all you'll never know what will happen tomorrow. Yeah you know your daily routine but do you know what will happen in between?
Think again...

Fear the Time

What are you scared the most? Death or Time?
If you ask me, my greatest fear is time. Every move you make in every single day of your life you depend on time. From the moment you wake up untill the time you slip on your pajamas. For me time is connected to death. Because you don't know what's gonna happen next when that long hand moves the future becomes unseen. When something regretful has happened or something happy has happened in your life either you want to back to the time that you wish you could have made it better or you just wanna stop the time because you don't just want to stay happy forever. But thats just inevitable. It's not like in that movie "Back to the Future" where you can ride on a time machine. It just doesn't work that way though. Life won't run without time and people won't age and we would be all populated in the world if there was no time. I guess we should look at the bright side and just face our fear.....

Life's Secret Ingredients

Life in reality is hard to follow. Everyone of us wants to succeed and wants to achieve the best sweetness that life could offer. But why are their still people that suffer from poverty and misfortune? Is this because we lost track of our life's path or we forgot the secret ingredients to success.

Let me tell you a little secret that I've seen from other people. Let's just say that they are not related to me in anyways but I adore these people I make them my inspiration and my role model. Have you heard the Senator Manny Villar? Well, Senator Manny did not grew up with a golden spoon in his mouth. He was just an ordinary boy like some of us. He just used to sell fish in the market, "Isang Kahig, Isang Tuka" e ka ng mga Pilipino. But look at him now, he is one the leader of the Philippines, a good leader to be exact. You must also have heard of Manny "Pacman" Pacquiao ang Pambansang Kamao? You should have heard his story. Before he was just a little boy full of dreams in his little town in General Santos. He is not rich at all, he is just a poor little kid. But see what Manny has been through? Now he is sleeping in dollars. He became a prominent person.

So we ask ourselves, what is their secret?

Their secret a simple life's ingredient courage, determination and faith in God. If you have that embeded in you, you be just like them. Don't mind poverty, it's normal nowadays. Make it your stairway to success. It's what we need to survive life's challenge.